I kinda like this song by Yuna

I want to update more tutorials but my desktop’s kinda busted. 2 nights ago I accidentally slapped my 1TB HDD to the floor. How awesome is that?

I also got into someone’s drama that night. Make it 3 dramas in 1 night. That’s messed up right? I’m so bored. These people need to grow up. Be a man and do the right thing. Just like what Russell Peters would do. Trust me, I don’t need to know about how you cant take care of life. I don’t need to know how you got jealous so easily with someone you don’t even know well. I don’t need to know how you have to depend on me to have girls and when you don’t you blame everything on me. Seriously people? I have my own fucking bullshit life to deal with you see. I have my own love problems, I have my own life to take care of, I have my own sex life to worry about. I don’t like to say so much if I’m in a situation, if I do feel lost, I’d just be emo for a day then think back and stratergize. Take it like a real man and DO IT. 1 baby step at a time at least. Whats wrong with you people? Gimme a break la. Your drama is not the end of the world. Stop being so EMO about little things. Everything can be solved. If you’re smart, and you have a brain that means you can think straight, plan and strategize your next move and not depend on your emotional feelings so much. Whats so hard? That’s how you do the right thing you idiots. Well at least that’s how I do it.

P/S: Sorry for the quick blabbering. I’m too lazy to edit and/or give a shit.

Just wanted to say Gong Xi Fatt Choi to everyone I know :)

Btw, I spent my CNY in KK and it was actually awesome! I had a good time chillaxin’ with my friends since the moment I reached KK until I go back to Labuan. Gambling everyday sure is crazy! hahaha! It sure was sad leaving everything behind. I had to be in denial for a day or two LOL! I have really great friends over there and I appreciate it. Thanks buddies! See you in Labuan next month!!!! :D

I havent written anything in this thing for a year. NICEE! Ok lah so I wanna write some shat, I would normally say ‘Im sorry I was just busy. I got no time no time no time’ – to people who gets pissed at me for not showing up or something but I dont think its appropriate to use that line right now. Im writing crap :D CRAP CRAP CRAP! :D

OK so what do I feel like I wanna talk about? LETS SEE…… 2010, whats been happening over the past 1 year? Well, I pretty much loved 2010. It rocked my balls! :D I had the bestest times of my life! I had SO MUCH fun, I met a lot of new interesting friends and some of them, they ROCKED and still is ROCKIN’ my life! :D I do get my UPS & DOWNS almost all the time -  in career, love and life itself. Though I’ve become a stronger person mentally not physically, haha. I’ve grew fatter because I’m HAPPY! and I don’t care? I do a little exercise once in awhile, yeah u know what I mean ;)  just kidding?

I progressed in giving myself more time to relax and cut down the working hours. I can actually sleep early once in awhile. I traveled a lot the whole year but not to a few places but just to ONE particular place :P I broke up with my ex early last year and it wasn’t actually that easy for me. I didn’t feel down for too long though but I cant stop feeling like an idiot for ever being with her. But whatever. It’s history yooooooow!  I still suck at this whole dating thing btw. Everytime I thought I like someone they turn out to be someone not worth my time. I’m seriously thinking about taking courses or just call Hitch. hahaha. Joking. I made bear to a normal person last year. Although actually there’s a lot more shit to be done but I guess it’s all good… for now. Papi found the meaning of life. hahaha. ITS ALL GOOD!

To end my crap, which I’m very sure no one in this world is reading and but me, I want to say 2 things. 1) 2010 I will never forget you, EFFF YOU for being so AWESOME! 2) The real shat – Life in the year of 2010 has been nothing good to me.  I gotta say that I’m proud and happy for myself :P AND like Papi I too found the meaning of life.  Whats the meaning of life for me you say?

Be a “Rock Star” in your own way ALL THE WAY and you will achieve Legendary! After that, no matter what happens you know you’ve LIVE that life everyone wants. Its like having a Legendary status stuck on your forehead! :P

The last 2 months, work/business  has been going from bad to worse. The  recession has finally kicked me on the head, really hard. Yep, I think I’m going mad! Where’s Achmed when you need him? Read only if you’re interested to know :)

Where is all my crazy funky ideas that I use to have? What am I suppose to do this time? I don’t think I want to fall down just yet. I’m on the brink of a career disaster and I am not ready for failure, not just yet. I have never failed, not even once. I have so much to learn and to try. It’s already been 3 years now that I started all this and believe me, I have fought the impossibles. I have been laughed at too many times but here I am still standing. You say I got no balls? I fought you. You say I’m crazy & stupid trying to do the impossible? I fought you. I’m pretty sure to you, I’m here talking & boasting about myself but to be honest, there are times when I feel like crying because the pressure is just way too much for me to handle. I’m just a little man trying to prove that I am capable of living my own life the way I want it to be. With that, I have become 1000 times better than I was when I first started. I have the ultimate knowledge which not a lot of people would get or experience. I have spent countless nights working & plotting for a better game, a better future. I am what you call a “One Man Show”.  Yeah sounds big right but It isn’t actually. But with all that I have experienced, why does it seem like I’m still falling down? Where is all these ideas I use to have? What seems to be the problem? Am I getting old? Or am I just too exhausted of the game? Or am I just out of my league?

I’m just a simple guy trying to live the dream. Isn’t that what everyone wants to achieve? Developing yourself to become the best at what you do and the best at what you can become of? There’s so many questions running & jumping inside my brain. I just don’t know what’s the best option/decision for me right now.

WHERE THE FUCK IS GUIDANCE WHEN YOU NEED THEM THE MOST?

Where the fuck are you, man? Come out you little shit.

ARGH! This is depressing. This is suffering. I’m hating it. If god is beside me then please I beg of you, show me the way. Show me where the path to the light is. Where the fuck are you Guidance? I need something. Just a little something to turn everything around and get back on track.

If nothing happens then I’m just another loser. I didn’t come from a rich family nor do I even have a diploma in my hand. What am i suppose to do in 2 months if I go down?

The real truth is, I don’t know man. I’m not praying for hope. Really I’m not.  I’m really sad & I’m really lost, but then again, I’m just trying to force things to go my way.  Wanna walk with me side by side? Cuz, well It’s been too long I walked by myself you see. I’m not asking much but we’ll see how the ending will be together, okay? :)

Yea the best classic game ever! I’m so addicted to it god I cant help but play it till 7-8 in the morning!

Here’s my screen shots. (Click for larger view =)

Well as you can see I might not be as good as you think, but who cares as long as I’m having fun.

I’m also addicted to Facebook’s Knighthood. Though somehow the creator’s server is SO damn slow that it takes ages to even do 1 little thing. I’d post a link for you guys but then TOO BAD the bloody server’s down again. Please get yourselves a better server dudes cuz I need to play them games. =)

So, anyone’s into Family Guy? Yea well my friends all said that it’s kind of old but hey took me like a week or so to finish up downloading them from Season 1 to Season 6. Somehow I’ve been into it alot. And I’ve been watching on a daily basis. haha. I’m addicted to silly funny stupid things. So I was thinking if you’ve got anything that I’m into then provide me with more infos man? man? man? (no, it’s not a typo)

Ah yea how’s work you say? We’ll I’m trying to slow things down now since I plan to move to somewhere. I’ve 3 on-going projects left and which 1 of them is almost done after almost a year’s of development and 2 more should be done in a week or so.

“Moving” is a big word for me, though everything is still unclear but I’m beginning to believe that it’s worth trying something new right now. The past few months I’ve been thinking back about all the things I’ve done and the problems that I’ve ran into and I’m kind of tired of doing what I’m doing now. I find it really hard to focus on things that matters (especially in the business side of things). Self confidence is one thing. Somehow I’m having trouble to find back that self-confidence “magic” that I use to have.(ceeeeeeewah! hehe) OR most probably I’m just too tired and need a vacation ni? hahaha. Now there’s a decision to make and it’s all in a matter of days to make up my mind. WISH ME LUCK! ehehehehe (laugh like Peter Griffin). Anyway, thanks for reading my crap =)